hi guys! this is the first time I'm using English on my blog, since I lived in taiwan, my english become so worst seriously! okay, maybe some of you guys don't know about me, either I don't share this post to any social network I have. Recently, I found my way is empty, like you don't know where to go to catch your dream. I have thinking about my dream these days causes I have many problem with my studies, maybe you have been through same as me. I feel like I dont belong in here, maybe cause the language, I never learned chinese before I go to taiwan. Chinese has been a language which i dislike so much and now I must dealing with chinese everyday and every time! This problem is bothering me, I got stress last semester and doctor said I need to relax myself, stress isnt good for your health you know it! So, I've been thinking to change my major or quit from my uni now, I have told my dad before to quit cause I feel bad for him, I have spend his money for nothing, besides since I studied in taiwan I feel like i got nothing, I answered the questions with my thoughts. Seriously, I feel bad, what teacher taught to me was my experiences, mean I have basic on tourism and my dad realized I can just take a job without go to uni.
Before to late I decided to quit uni on this August and plan to go the other uni, but how? The truth is my dad is on a hard time, my house must do the renovation which means it isnt cheap, my bro go to uni too, and if I go to uni too I will make my dad overwhelmed. What should I do? Whereas, I wanna go to the other country this is serious, I got some opportunity but the problem is money. yeah money money money, I always got problem with this tiny little thing but everyones need it! Honestly, I feel like if I use my own money I will study hard, I make promise of it, but I dont have enough money for my money either. All I want is go to a country named L* lol you guys might known it! Take communication studies for my next education and boom! I'll graduated and search a job in L*. I wish my life everyday and pray for it, sometimes I just imagine I get a $10.000.000 LOL big imagination right? and then without thinking I'll apply my application and then take a plane and study really hard for this thing! I also will help my dad to renovation his house, I feel guilty with him, his job is freelance tour guide which is the salary is a small amount. I wish it everyday and I wish it could be come true, I will be so happy, I wont spend that money for shopping but for my future, for my family, I wish I wish.
For you guys who lose your way like me, pray! and trust your heart, follow your heart, I know it's hard to choose what the best for our life, if you want quickly make more money of course it isnt easy like you think right, yeah you can dream of it but you must keep trying to get it. Every way we choose always have a risks, what you need to do is deal with it! keep trusting yourself! dont give up, it will be come to us if we believe and work on it. well, goodluck for us!!
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